Have you ever wondered…

how the very same person…say…me, you or even one’s next door neighbour…can be so very active and full of determination when tackling a certain task and be a total couch potato…the perfect recipient for “The Laziest Person of the Year” award…when it comes to something else?

Take me for example. I seem to have boundless energy and enthusiasm for say, going to band practice and learning new songs…or cleaning the house. But boy oh boy, when it comes to writing regularly on my blogs…I seem to become a totally different person altogether.

Saif (my hubby) actually made me feel guilty…yes, guilty…for neglecting this and a couple of other things in my life for the past few years or so. I used to paint and draw quite a lot back in my school and university days, and…I’m not boasting here…I was quite good. Maybe not with oils or pastels…as I’ve never dabbled with these mediums…but I was quite accomplished when it came to pencil sketches and water colours. I hardly paint anymore…there’s even a half-finished painting lying in a drawer full of my personal documents…I’d started on the project around ’99…lol..that’s 11 years!

But something deep inside me am sure, mourns the loss of those aspects of my personality…an unconscious part of me perhaps still clings to the hope that I’ll start writing again. Or painting again.

If I had made a conscious decision to close these two chapters of my life for good, I think I would have simply deactivated both of my blog accounts…and I never would have lovingly saved all my precious drawings and paintings from my childhood days in a plastic zip-lock bag.

So here I am…at least making the effort to do something about the writing part. As to taking up the pencil and paint brushes again? Well.. I have asked Saif to buy me a brand new set of water colours and brushes to prod me towards the right direction. I do belive I’m using the absence of these inanimate objects as an excuse .. 🙂

But I am promising myself that the very first thing I will be doing once I become the proud owner of those brushes and that paint box, is to complete that half-done painting of mine and frame the bloody thing…

I hope whoever is reading this post sympathizes or empathizes with my plight and wishes me luck …

Oh…and I’m attaching a recent drawing…an unashamed flaunting of my skills I must say…that I did for the CD sleeve for the debut-album of my hubby’s metal band “SHOCK“..

Not a bad job hey?

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